broke

bukan pecah

tapi kering.. duit dalam bank..

habis aa.. mak+ayah is sooo going to kill me..

On what have i spent on to experience this kind of misfortune? i sort of know the answer for that question but the pieces of ideas are still need to be glued together for it to make sense, for me..

list of things i bought that is/was useful:

-a cardigan for the dress i wore for asasi's dinner. (yup2, really important, cannot show any armpit hair that night, no no..)
-a COOL pantyhose as they don't allow students to show off their freshly wax legs at the dinner.
-a handbag (it's pink!) for dinner.
-make up stuff include: eyeshadow, eyeliner, eyeshadow brush.
-fadie's present and aina zahari's mashimaro.^^

list of things that was bought without thinking:
-2 bags for class, each cost rm15 and rm25 respectively.. (yaa you're crazy!)
-stupid stuff i ate in class, lecture hall, bedroom, in a bus.(jajan laa)which are: almost 20 bars of chocolate boast each cost about rm3.40++, 15-20 rollercoaster chips each rm1.70, 15-20 icecream fruitare each rm1.50, countless of mentos rm 1.30, cookies, bergedil 50sen a piece, wedges can be rm1 to rm3, nips rm2, n the list goes on and on..
-a buy one free on undergarment (was bought out of curiosity, and it does kills me)

i also paid 2 yuran IPTA: RM475 and RM420
electric bill: RM30
dinner: RM30

daily life expenses: bus tickets: RM1 per day, food:around RM3 to RM5 per day, xerox money for notes and tutorials RM??,...




conclusion: how am i going to survive for another approximately one MONTH?!

doom. doom. doom.





i will sleep for money,
yaa

All About Him - Auburn

c word

today i learnt a new word

a c word

oohhh, daddy won't be please if he finds out

but i afraid, a much as i love learning about new words, doesn't mean i'll use the c word too

i stand my loyalty on using the f word only! not c, d or effing b.. just f word..

f for feelings

c is just not 'it' man.. not 'it'..

future, what they, i hope for

My granny wants to see me becoming a doctor as she wished to see at least a grandchild manage to be a doctor since all of her children couldn't.
List of her and Tok abah's (i called my granddad by this name) children and their current occupation:

1st child: My mom(she's the eldest) - an executive in human resource department in a UKM sub-company or so.. my mum didn't want to be a doctor. listening to her story about how my granddad forbid her from further study make me feel blissed for having both parents who wanted me to be what so ever as long i try to be successful at it.. (and sent both of them 10% of my monthly salary after i started working in the future, don't worry, i'll keep my promise, since i'll be living with you guys till the day i died anyway ^^)

2nd child: My 1st uncle, he's.. urmm.. worked many kind of works.. Currently managing a catering in some educational center.. wherever there is I'd forgotten.

3rd child: My first aunt, she's by forever is the prettiest aunt i had, she had been through tough time but i love her a lot and wish her a happy life.. but yup not a doctor materials too..

4th child: Second uncle, i remember how i used to adore him when i was 5 or so.. now things just a so so for us.. i wish we could get closer like before, really wish you a good health and perfect non poverty life always.. his job? whatever.. i forgot..

5th child: Can't lie but yup this aunt gotta be my most favorite.. she work in UKM managing computers and IT stuff there(which is so not my bread and butter, as my knowledge level on computer is on networking and games only, that's all, suddenly i woke up one morning there they are, ipad, i don't even know how to used a touchscreen phone) i don't know why she didn't become a doctor..

6th child: She an engineer-turn-business woman. she used to be fun, but now everything is just business, even the way she talked to me is business like. miss the friendly you, really.

7th child and 8th: They're twins. I adore their physical appearance. I always seen them as the gorgeous twins, beautiful in whatever they wear. The 8th has softer facial expression than the 7th but the 7th is fiercer just like my mom. Business women also.

9th child: She is following my granddad's footsteps on becoming a teacher.

10th child: I'm closest to this person among my mom's siblings. Maybe due to our age difference, which is only 4 years) This uncle, sigh~, he's a mess. LOL. medical doctor? more to love doctor maybe, with all the flirting, he bound to be one. LOL. Wants to be a business man, well wish him luck and success. (so he could give me duit raye! Tahun lepas x bagi!)

so, you see. no doctor. nada. but i wasn't plan to be a doctor. sure at six i used to repeat over and over and over again about when i'm all grown up i want to be a doctor but that just me being a kid whose babble about typical stuff.

TYPICAL AMBITIONS BY KINDERGARTEN KIDS:

-doctor
-teacher
-army
-firefighter
-police
-superman
-prime minister
-sailormoon
-bibik (housemaid)..?? (my lil' cousin said this, haha, as she saw a bibik is farrr more hardworking than her mom on house works, but she also said naively, she wants to be a bibik so that she could take care of her mom.. awww.. so sweet.. well hana darling, you could always be my bibik.. *wink2 ^.-)

so, the question is, what will i became in the future?

i'll be taking human resource for my 1st degree.. in UPM.. hope i'll got accepted. so as things go i'll probably become an executive at some company, working in an office. i used to say to myself; "i'll never work in an office","i'll never work from nine to five for five days like my parents","i'll never be like my parents, i'll be more, i'll be imaginative, i'll be a writer..


the thing is, i want to a be writer.. really really want to one, but i need a stabilize income. i'll be toasted if my books doesn't sell well and i'll surely didn't want to be a journalist, reporter.. but a novelist..



well, i hope for the best and pray to Allah on what he had stored for me because He's the Almighty who knows everything, then, now and the future.




wish to be kind to cats,

YAA

what a night? next day, what a morning..

last night was a so-so..

foundation's grand dinner at grand ballroom SACC shah alam..

that place was wide.. seriously, wide. there's about 100+ tables and mine was the 68th.. far FAR away from the stage.. can only saw a speck of what's going on upfront.. pity me..

the so-called one night gala offer me a on the far away table, yummy food, started with a great appetizer, soto ayam(there's actually a bergedil in it, my favourite), main course white rice with black pepper beef, grilled prawn, korma chicken, a grilled vege's and tip it off with delightful dessert, raspberry creme brulee, yum yum..

my dress? is a mess.. i'd put on a mess..

i'd permed my hair too.. try imagining me with curly hair..(don't need to, see above picture :D)

performance? no comment...(it suck! just a little, maybe not to my liking, but i suppose enjoyed the k-pop dance performance by some of my classmates.. they are not that good anyway at dancing but praises are theirs as they did put their effort to it, but i loooove the songs that they'd danced to)

concluding that the night did have it imperfectness, but the time i could spend with my friends, taking pictures, sharing praises of each others clothes, i wouldn't change it for anything..(well except to go back home in bdr bru bangi, sob sob i MISSSS YOU MAK!!!)

next morning.. (okay, honestly afternoon, i woke up at 12.35pm) it was bright, the sun is shinning so brightly.. then it rains.. the sky is sweating after all the sun tanning.. then the rain stop..(wait, wait, i'm not going to say anything like: "the rainbow came out! weepeee~~")

fog,

fog came out.

it was cold and breezy.

but the time like stop.. it stood still(well not really, i mean, it did move a lil' bit.. i did say it was breezy right?)

i wish everyday would be as breezy and cold as today..

^^ ~~<3>

Feelings

i've never write an entry about mushi stuff because those kinda stuff always make me feel uncool, and i wanna be cool. everyone does.

what's up with feelings?

cant you feel the heart beats faster then you finally realize that you're in love?

you felt your eyes tearing because of feeling sad and it wasn't the onions.

the concert in your stomach started demanding food then finally you notice how hungry you are.

when the final exam results came out, you've fail 2 to 3 subjects, then you regret saying how a genius you are so study is a no need, stupid you felt. if stupid is a feeling.. then why they say "i felt stupid!" she/he might know stupid IS a feeling.

you felt it but not until for a while you'll realize why you felt that way.

my feelings? hungry, tired, bored not in a good way bored, fed up, impatient.. and a never ending etc, etc.. of complaints about how hard my life is, others had it easy.. am i the only one to suffer like this? others had it easy..

they dragged me to listen. about how hard their lives are, in my head i swore, "you had it easy, shut the F word up" but i'd once or twice been in they shoes, the person listening to my so-called-sad-life episodes will probably felt the same way.. she/he might thought of the 'F word' too.

you! 'F word' er! just past tense of 'F word' up! to many 'F words'..

'feel' is a F word rite?

you! 'feel'er! that is soo not right.. rite? hhahahahaa *this blogger had gone a lil cukoo due to lack of sleep.. so good night! have a FEELING that i might dream about nacho's.. never heard of then before? ohh they're great.. go grab a bite.. kk papai~~